My car has been in the shop 3 times in as many months for the same issue, costing me more money than I had at some points, it's in the shop now and they haven't called me in a week, they have no idea what's going in and won't return my calls.

Since my car has been in the shop and has been costing me a ton I've had to carpool a lot which keeps me at work late waiting for a ride, and I don't get to go out much without wheels and low on funds, I miss my friends.

Work is going REALLY well, it's tiring, but I've been extremely successful and have gotten 2 raises recently. I'm nearly making double what I started at. So at least the one thing that I have major influence over is going extremely well.

2 more yucky things though.

So I got diagnosed with severe sleep apnea last month. They have me on a machine at night that basically is supposed to force me to breath, but because of my allergies the machine isn't helping much, I'm exhausted! But am taking the day off today to sleep, and see a doctor about my allergies and seeing an ENT specialist about my sinuses. Yey!

I'm having a difficult time with the Brady Bunch family theme right now. Anakah and Dani are such polar opposites in temperament, Anakah is very much her mothers daughter, she's enthusiastic, inquisitive, boisterous and just really positive. She's brilliant and silly and funny and eloquent and verbose, she scores around 5th grade level in most subjects and is only in second grade - I'm so proud. She is very high energy, and low energy people probably find that to be obnoxious.
Dani is struggling, she is interested in video games and tv, no passion, nothing she's good at, no enthusiasm, she struggles in all of her classes, she struggles to communicate effectively. She's generally blah. I feel like she can see me favoring Nikah and that's making things hard on her. It's hard for me to identify with Dani, and I see that she's isolating herself a lot. It's hard. We don't do much as a family because all three of them are pretty lazy and just went to play video games, while I can't sit still and really want to go out and explore the world.
I love and appreciate my boyfriend, I just don't really know why were pretending to be a family, instead of actually spending time together doing things together.

Dunno, just feel swamped right now. At least I have an amazing job and amazing kiddo.

goth/industrial/ebm/darkwave/alternative ROLLERSKATING @ San Jose Skate, 397 Blossom Hill Road, San Jose 9-11 tonight!

I'll be there, will you?!?!?

Looking for one-of-a-kind, unique, odd, bizarre, eccentric, strange and wonderful things to see in LA, Anaheim and SD next week. LMK if you know of any of these!

So far I know about "The Echo Park Time Travel Mart" and "Wacko" in LA.

cruising through a loop through the valley through my mind
through the memories and the heat and the days I left behind
through what happened and through why
with my sunroof open

Midnight
is it yesterday
today
or tomorrow
its all one big moment, or is it a small one?

cruising
its easy
like melting through the moments
its only easy because it used to be so hard

reflecting on how it was
in the moments that I've lost
why I lost
those moments are far behind

cruising through the temperature range
waiting for it to drop below 70
a few blocks from home the temperature rises again

feeling like a bit of a creepy stalker
driving near home after home of memories from a long time ago
how the memories flood in
how romantic it all seems, majestic, triumphant, infantile

tiny pieces
many tiny pieces
making up the tapestry that is my story
so much more beauty inside

I'm blessed
I'm magical
I'm thankful
Life is grand.

I want!
BuckyBalls Magnetic Building Spheres

Thinking about running away this weekend, just my and my baby girl. Where to tho?

*More pink for all - hair dying in sections for all the girls of the house... bright friggin pink baybee!
*Anakah getting her ears pieced AGAIN - this time we'll leave them in for a really long time so they don't close up!
*The freakin BoardWalk - 'cause its supposed to get into the 80's this weekend.
*Transplant my corn, bell peppers and peas from pots to the ground.
*Bike ride at Shoreline Park.
*Paint Anakah's nails - I promised I would
*Vaccuum the house... I'm pretty sure that there is enough kitty fur on the floor to knit something uber tiny.

LIVE HARD!

My Life According to Google-

1: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search:
"Andrea needs all her wits and all the help she can get from the company's attractive operations manager to find and stop the perpetrators."

2: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search:
"Andrea looks like me! I'm not a fan but she really looks like me!!"

3: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search:
""Andrea hates me." Poor you. You must be a really mean person if I hate you."

4: Type in "[your name] goes" in Google search:
"Andrea goes a bit psycho from Sunday Mirror provided by Find Articles at BNET."

5: Type in "[your name] loves" in Google search:
"Andrea Loves You says: "I'm a Virgin....but this "says" is old""

6: Type in "[your name] drinks" in Google search:
"Andrea drinks only iced tea, even at breakfast; Lisa drinks only the hottest of hot tea."

7: Type in "[your name] has" in Google search:
"Andrea has a nervous breakdown. Andrea could write. Oh, boy howdy, could this girl write."

8: Type in "[your name] works" in Google search:
"Andrea Works is on Facebook. Facebook gives people the power to share and makes the world more open and connected."

9:Type in"[your name] lives" in Google search:
"Andrea Lives Life to the Fullest"

10:Type in "[your name] died" in Google search:
"Meanwhile, all the fragile petals of my weeping cherry tree, which first bloomed on the day Andrea died, have fallen."

11:Type in "[your name] will" in Google search:
"Andrea Will is on Facebook, a social utility that connects people with friends and others who work, study and live around them."

12:Type in "[your name] wears" in Google search:
"Andrea wears Codie by Mirada."

13:Type in "[your name] eats" in Google search:
"Andrea's Eats....Keeping it real."

14:Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search:
"Andrea wants parents to keep their kids in rear-facing car seats longer."

15:Type in "[your name] was arrested for" in Google search:
"Andrea was arrested for being a crack dealer. Umm...WHAT? lol ..."

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I'm in a email chain, a group of parents who have kids that started kindergarten last year, I guess its a yahoo group, I just get the emails. Anyway, the group is pretty active, a few posts go around every week asking the parents things about school and how to handle things with their kids in regards mostly to school.

The most recent email going around is how to police the TV, and I feel like quite the goody goody about this. Parents are worried that their kids watch WAY too much TV but are thankful that they do (in a way) because it provides time for the parents to do their own thing for an hour or so everyday.

These parents are saying that it's hard to get their 7 year olds to turn off the TV after 3 hours of cartoons an evening! And that their kids will watch TV all day long on the weekends (sadly it not just ONE parent that admits to this!)!

My reaction? Well I want help, so I've been thinking about what to say... but what I have to offer wont be helpful and will only sound goody goody.

Nik watches TV, sure, certainly not everyday, and when she watches TV its 99% educational and WITH the family. We watch "MythBusters", "How its made", "Prototype this", "Nova", "Good Eats"... mostly science stuff, always together (so we talk about what just happened), and really no more than 2 hours per day (and that's weekend mornings ('cause I like sleeping in)).

We don't have issues with TV watching, I also don't get "me time" until after the kids are in bed, but I figure 9-11 is plenty of time to do stuff for myself, and if I want to draw then the kids can draw right along with me - I don't need them to be pre-occupied with the idiot box.

All these parents have free time for themselves but worry for 6-7 year olds. Seems to me that the answer is simple - just turn it off and SPEND TIME with your kid, have them play, have them create, interact with them... if you're spending quality time with them then they wont need the idiot box.

I can't write this tho, not to them, I don't wish to be ostracized from the elite group of parents who have the luxury of staying at home while their kids are off to school... many of them have far more luxury than I have, more time, more money... and yet they can't make time to do what I see as being the obvious solution - what quality of life is it really without interaction and new experience?

There was a Maybelline commercial in the early 90's or late 80's, the tagline was "Don't hate me because I'm beautiful" it always stuck with me... I think of that when I say that I don't hate the "have's"... I'm just maybe a little sad that with all that they have they can't just figure out how to turn the TV off and give their children more opportunities to grow and express themselves as opposed to putting them in a room and closing the door behind.

A friend of mine posted about her "type", I was curious to see if I have a type, I guess I never really thought about it but as I gathered the pictures all together of my Hollywood crushes (or in one case Las Vegas) it's becoming clear to me that I totally go for a type.
Guys:
Johnny Depp(how many dark movies has this guy been in?),
Chris Angel(MindFreak (look it up)), and
Antonio Banderas(the vampire Armand).

Chickies:
Alyssa Milano(Charmed),
Wynona Ryder(Where would I even begin?!?!),
Christina Ricci(again, where would I begin?!?!),
Keira Knightley (is just really HAWT) and
Robin Tunney(The Craft).

Yeah, there are more girls on my list than guys, don't be a hater!

I think I totally go for the dark, mysterious and slightly intimidating look! Mind you I think that I would insist that most of them take showers before I have my way with them, but *drool*.

OK, so after I wrote this I added where I first got the hots for them, and yeah, they're all dark and creepy roles. My I'm a sick fuck aren't I?

It's exhausting not being able to breathe regularly :(

Apparently all the fast acting inhalers for asthma have uppers in them - which my doctor has on a list of things that shouldn't be given to me, I have a terrible reaction to all things ephedrine, pseudoephedrine or otherwise. So these attacks that I'm having - well I basically have to suffer through them until the steroids inhaler starts taking affect.

Yey, I have to take steroids pretty much indefinitely now. I can't help but wonder if this shit woulda happened if I hadn't quit smoking.

I quit smoking 4 months ago, quitting was relatively easy and painless, I didn't hack up a lung afterwards - it was as though I never did smoke... just business as usual. What do I get for my good deed of quitting? Doc thinks I now have asthma - great!

I thought quitting smoking was supposed to be a GOOD thing?!?!?!


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